I feel like I'm in such a good place right now: academically, living, dating, socially, friends. Just everything. This whole positive attitude change has made a huge difference. 17 hours is definitely a heavy load but I believe if I stay on top of things i can do this. I'm so determined to get good grades this semester; not achieving this is not an option. If i want to make Med school happen, this has to happen.
The First Friday Throwdown was such a blast. I had so much fun. And was so humbled that all of my friends made it over. It was so awesome to see all of them together in one room. I don't think they knew, but it made me feel so loved by all of them that came. It sounds dumb, but lately that means a lot. I'm all about people who make an effort to be in my life. If i see this in someone, then hands down I will make the effort to be a part of theirs, no matter past history or anything. That being said, I'm making a big effort to not try and hold on to friendships, and dating, that aren't mutually important. And dating for that matter. See last post for me believing in myself that I'm someone worth having around. It's time i start recognizing that.
People I'm thankful for recently: Paul, Becky, Caitlyn.
P: living with him is probably one of the best decisions I've made recently as far as making myself grow up and learn more about myself. We had such a good conversation in the car last night on the way home from Rays about being gay and what it meant to each of us. It was such a refreshing conversation and I can tell we are on our way to becoming really really great friends.
B: BFE. haha love our abbrevs. I am so happy with how things are going this school year. Each summer, you are my rock. You make living in Roswell so bearable, and even fun. And I am beyond thrilled that we are hanging out in Athens. I look forward to our Bravo nights. And especially Rachel Zoe. I Die. And as always, I'm thankful for your advice on everything. You really help me through more than you know.
C: Ah. this year is so different, but i think just as good as last year. Each time i get to see you, i am -so- excited. Like i think i cherish it so much more and don't take it for granted like i did last year. When i know im gonna get to hang out with you, I literally get so excited and can't stop smiling. Saturday night was seriously -so- much fun. It may not have seemed like anything special to you, but I couldn't have imagined having any more fun with you.
I'm trying to get out and date more. See whats out there. And trying to keep an open mind :) so far so good.
I'm not settling with any regrets this year. its Junior Year. lets do this bitch right.
P.S: for as hot as D is, I'm not sure he's entirely good enough for me. "I used to be lovedrunk, but now I'm hungover".
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